12 11 2013

Code?

Meditate?

Exercise?

Taijutsu?

Journal?

Very vivid dream this morning.

I was talking to Luke Kaney and summarizing much of the earlier parts of my dream, where I had travelled to Germany and Italy for speaking event, and also to Texas and somewhere around there in car. In the dream the last time I had saw him was at a soccer team reunion party, and I had already started working in New York at that time. We talked about how great of a dealer Pete was. Daria was hanging out with us and we were waiting for Andy. Luke was playing some weird music and Daria asked if she could DJ and he said something to the effect of go ahead. I guess we were in “my room” in “Saddlewood”. We somehow started to talk about the occult, at which point Luke summoned a little demon to visible manifestation, which began to molest Daria. I hit him and it disappeared. Then he summoned this evil cat thing that was made up of lots of dark wisps which would try to attack us, was extremely hard to fight and very fast. Finally I managed to whip it to death. Daria was very scared and I tried to cast a circle of protection around her from a really big tome. When I tried to remove the evil cat’s corpse I found a pile of rotting meat in one of my shelves that had turned into lots of maggots and flies. At this point I was disgusted and the dream changed. I was in a multi level shopping mall, probably the mall of America and I went from a big bookstore to the Lego store. They were selling little kits of mini figures plus a few props for a lot of money. Like a ninja mini figure with shuriken and a wizard mini figure.

12:42:58 AM: Decided that I am going to journal before doing the KAP meditation, since I’ve been noticing a lot of day dreaming during the process. Of course, my body is still going through the steps of the meditation, but I believe I will get better results if I apply a meditative focus to the process. Plane ride was interesting, I wasn’t able to finish the KAP meditation while I was in the air due to the weirdness of it and all the distracting thoughts that it brought up. Oh, let me go and cast yijing for tomorrow.

  1. Sung / Conflict -> 44. Kou / Coming to Meet

Okay. Wow, this might be the most directly applicable draw I’ve ever had.

CONFLICT. You are sincere

And are being obstructed.
A cautious halt halfway brings good fortune.
Going through to the end brings misfortune.
It furthers one to see the great man.
It does not further one to cross the great water.

I’m not sure who the “great man” here refers to, but it says “It is important to see the great man, that is, an impartial man whose authority is great enough to terminate the conflict amicably or assure a just decision.” I think that might be Brian May in this case. Maybe if I come clean and be honest with him then I can make this okay.

“In times of strife, crossing the great water is to be avoided, that is, dangerous enterprises are not to be begun, because in order to be successful they require concerted unity of focus. Conflict within weakens the power to conquer danger without.”

I absolutely can not take the job at Palantir because of this.

Six in the third place means:
To nourish oneself on ancient virtue induces perseverance.
Danger. In the end, good fortune comes.
If by chance you are in the service of a king,
Seek not works.

This is a warning of the danger that goes with an expansive disposition. Only that which has been honestly acquired through merit remains a permanent possession. It can happen that such a possession may be contested, but since it is really one’s own, one cannot be robbed of it. Whatever a man possesses through the strength of his own nature cannot be lost. If one enters the service of a superior, one can avoid conflict only by not seeking works for the sake of prestige. It is enough if the work is done: let the honor go to the other.

Perhaps I should just bide my time and let this whole matter fall away. I shouldn’t even try to use this as leverage for a raise, and just be satisfied with the raise they give me at the end of the year.

I don’t know how to interpret Coming to Meet. Perhaps it is a warning about Maya. I feel that I am in peril here, so I much watch my step carefully.

1:47:20 AM: Still a lot of mind wandering today. Maybe I should seriously pursue the idea of getting Talmadge to remaster that tape. But I have to first apologize to him for stealing his merchandise, repay him in full, and write him some glowing testimonials, seeing as how his stuff really works. In particular the pheromone protocol has been amazing. I was really hot and sweating by the end, however. Also I feel a lot less affected by the alcohol which is interesting.